I am typically good at taking a step back, observing the situation, and logically calming down.
Yesterday, something happened that made me boil.
I knew I was going to erupt.
I haven't been so angry in ages. The feeling was strong. Even thinking back on it, I can feel my blood pressure rise.
It isn't so much what happened as what was conveyed by the actions.
|It's a puddle I inverted and added a filter to. It gave me joy.|
I have a "friend".
He hurt me a few years ago by abruptly ending our friendship.
We were pretty great buddies, or so I thought.
We were even kinda "dating".
One day I got a phone call saying, "We can't date anymore. We can't even be friends anymore."
and that was all.
It was strange.
I was incredibly hurt.
I was angry, but mostly hurt. I trusted this guy.
In the following months, I learned real application of forgiveness.
After a few months, he apologized and we were moving forward in being amicable; we even became facebook friends again. A small step, but a good sign.
As I type, I realize that this may all sound small and petty.
Life is so much greater and bigger than one little relationship and hurtful actions.
It amazes me that little things can make such a huge difference. I don't understand why my emotions are so strong.
Flash forward: on Friday I went out for a run -- it was glorious.
I came across a beautiful puddle.
I love puddles.
I took a picture with my phone, rotated it, added a filter, and texted it to some friends. I sent the before and after, to give some perspective.
That picture up above? That's the picture.
It made me happy, and getting positive comments from friends that it made them happy too was wonderful.
One friend, (you know that one who had hurt me), said it should go on reddit.
I didn't realize he was going to post it as me.
Yesterday, during a break at work (tangent: I have a job! It's hard work, and inconsistent scheduling every so often, but it's a good job) I asked if he had actually posted it. He had. So I asked for the link.
Amazingly, he had the brazeness to send it to me.
I read the title.